“Essential” Employee

So at the start of this pandemic when everything was closed down, we really got a good look at who was “essential” versus who and what business we could go without. Basically. Example, grocery stores- essential, bars- not essential.

Now as I’ve said before I work in a psychiatric hospital, therefore I am essential. Which as a hospital also means 24/7, 7 days a week, including holidays. So Christmas isn’t always spent with family and we don’t all get to cook out for 4th of July and what not. Anywho, working in the time of a pandemic has really opened my eyes to see how my company/corporation and America values us.

And let me tell you….I’m not feeling very valued. The most we got is free meals and as much as I love eating, the food at work completely sucks. So it’s not even a bonus. I’m forced to wear a mask 8-12 hours a day, sometimes even 16 depending my schedule. And it sucks. But it is what it is.

Maybe not every essential employee (I can’t speak for everyone) feels this way, but I feel as though not enough was done for us. I am very thankful to wake up and have a job through all this but I am also putting myself and my family at risk. Some people lost their jobs completely, some work from home, some are just laid off and getting unemployment. So I am thankful to be working. However, I don’t feel valued as an employee.

As much as my company and corporation could have done to make us feel more valued, I think America could have as well. That 17 year old kid that works at your local grocery store after school, is an essential. They are coming in contact with hundreds of people everyday and potentially exposing themselves to this virus. So it’s not just hospitals and ERs that are facing it. It is so much more than that. It’s more than nurses and doctors.

I come home from work and leave my shoes on the porch, complete strip down right inside the front door and shower ASAP. Because you never know. I see people from all over the state and you just never know who has it or who has been around it. And for what? A paycheck and a free meal?

Some company’s are doing wonderful things for their essential employees. I know a guy who’s gotten 4 separate $300 bonuses for working during the pandemic on top of their regular quarterly bonus. He’s probably made $3000 more this year in just bonuses/covid relate income. And guess where he works, a grocery store.

Maybe I’m crazy or just being whiny and jealous, but honestly as a whole I think essential employees should get more. Hazard pay or an extra pay check or a bonus. Just something to say thank you. Because if you really think about it, the world couldn’t have continue to function without us essentials.

So if anything, anything at all, if you know an essential employee, say thank you. Thank them for continuing to work. Continuing to stock the shelves, taking care of your loved ones either hospital or nursing home etc., continuing to drive truck and get supplies where need be, continuing to keep American functioning. Thank them.

After all, they deserve it.

Dealing with Acne and Rosacea

Okay so I’ve never EVER been the girly girl type. Never into make up and dressing all cutesy for the boys or any of that. I grew up wrestling with my 4 brothers. So I guess you could say I’m a bit of a Tom boy.

BUT LET ME TELL YOU, having a skin care routine has completely changed my life. And no I don’t mean like I got my dream job or I won the lottery. But it changed me. It changed the way I feel about myself. I went from just washing my face in the shower with soap and a wash cloth or some cheap ass clean and clear product to a full blown skin care routine.

As I said earlier, I’m not a girly girl so having this like 3 (sometimes even 5) step face wash routine is insane to me. But my face has never been more clear or smooth. I’ve always had red and blotchy cheeks due to rosacea and acne but now my face is so clear and acne is completely gone (aside from a pimple here and there).

I know a 3-5 step skin care routine seems like a lot but it’s really not. And it’s really worth it. Rodan and Fields products changed my skin, it changed how I feel about myself and how I look at myself. And I’m not going to lie, the stuff is expensive. But I’d rather spend money on products that work and some shit you can buy anywhere. I saw a HUGE difference in just ONE use.

If you’ve never heard of Rodan and Fields, they are a skin care company ran by two Stanford University graduates. They also are the ones who created the popular teen acne product Proactiv. But they decided to go bigger. So there’s regimens for just about any skin concern. Acne and rosacea (like in my case), fine lines and wrinkles, lifting and firming aging skin, tired/dull skin, uneven tones and dark marks and so on.

But on top of that, they sell masks. Which are probably one of my favorite things to do. Just put on a mask and lay there and relax. Drink some wine (or whiskey depending the kind of day it is) and just let the magic happen. It’s so relaxing. There’s a total of 5 different kind of masks so there’s definitely something to suit your needs. It feels nice to get pampered, or so at least feel like you’re getting pampered.

If you’ve never heard of this company, check it out. Look them up online. They have consultants all over who will gladly help you out. My best friend is a consultant and her customers absolutely love her and the products. Don’t know what products you would need? No problem! They even make a little online quiz ya take that will give you the type of product they feel you need.

Seriously, check them out. Let them help boost your self esteem. It’s time to find something that will really work for you. It’s time to feel comfortable in your own skin and stop caking on make up to hide the imperfections.

Bare skin is in and it’s beautiful.

The Quarantine of 2020

So as we all know 2020 has been quite a shitshow so far. We’re almost 8 months into the year and I’m not sure of a single normal thing that has happened. The coronavirus outbreak really put a slight damper on things (sarcasm on the slight). Around mid-March everything went on lock down and nothing has been the same since.

It started out with everyone buying toilet paper. Why toilet paper? I don’t fucking know and I still don’t understand that. And then a 2 week shut down for schools. Those 2 weeks lead into another 2 weeks. And next thing ya know, everything in PA in closed down aside from the “essentials”. Kids were expected to learn school work from home. Parents were expected to work from home while being the teacher for their kiddos. And that was if you were lucky. Some people completely lost their jobs.

I consider myself lucky. I am an essential employee. I have worked throughout this whole pandemic. Sure I have my fair share of complaints about it all but I was still blessed to wake up and have a job to go too. However, I feel like the talk of being an essential employee during the pandemic can be saved for a whole different blog.

Things have slowly started to go back to normal. Here in PA we went through reopening phases of red- everything is still shutdown, yellow- a few more stores and businesses opened up, and then green- mostly everything is up and running. However we still keep our social distancing mandatory. So I guess this is our new “normal”. Going out to eat with face masks on, restaurants running with every other table closed off, hand sanitizer everywhere. You cough or sneeze in public and you’re definitely getting looked at with some evil eyes.

Maybe normal isn’t a good word to describe this. Maybe there isn’t a word to use for this “situation” America and the rest of the world is in. But I’ll tell you one thing, we cannot go back to our old normal. Normal wasn’t so good. The planet has gotten better since the shutdown. Our wildlife is thriving right now. Animals are now roaming in our national parks again. There’s no human threat, there’s nothing taking over their land. Less people working means less people driving which means less pollution. Less pollution is always a good thing. Juno Beach in Florida has seen more leatherback turtles nests than they have in years. I’m sure other beaches around the world have seen a similar increase. The Himalaya Mountains are visible for the first time in 30 freaking years!!! The canals in Venice are so clear since they were not used as much in the shut down, creating less pollution and garbage in the water. Animals are beginning to come back to the canals.

Honestly I can go on and on about this virus and the quarantine. But as things begin to open back up, we need to remember to be better. Be better for ourselves and our Earth. Take better precautions, be more mindful. So as many terrible things have happened since the quarantine began, many great things have also happened. And for that I am thankful.

Be better, do better and we can quickly see results of our positive actions. We only have one life and one Earth, let’s take care of it.

All Work, No Play

So fun fact: I work in a psychiatric hospital. Well we actually call it a psychiatric “center” because the word hospital is “degrading” or something like that.

Anyway, it’s an inpatient facility meaning our patients stay there until they are more mentally stable appointments and aftercare is set up. We have patients that are there for anything from depression and anxiety to homicidal and suicidal thoughts/actions. Also people experiencing delusions, like hearing voices or visual hallucinations.

Needless to say, my job gets interesting.

So sometimes when our patients get physically aggressive or tries to harm themselves, we have to restrain them. In the 4 and a half years I’ve worked here I couldn’t count the number of restraints I’ve been in. This job is can be so physically and mentally exhausting.

It can be so hard to separate work and personal life and this job eats you alive if you can’t figure out how to do that. I spend all day helping and taking care of people and trying to help them and their mental health that sometimes I tend to put my own mental health on the back burner.

Now we all know mental health awareness is making a rise it today’s society. It’s not such a taboo subject anymore. However, I think we’re all guilty of not taking care of our personal mental health as we should. And I can’t stress enough how important it is! We’re always busy taking care of kids or others that we never seem to have time for ourselves BUT we have to make that time. Even just 15 minutes a day to just yourself, it can make a huge difference.

We think we constantly be the strong one or the one everyone counts on, but you can’t be afraid to ask for help or even a break. We can’t be expected to take care of everyone and yourself. There’s always help out there. So if you’re someone struggling with any sort of mental illness (anxiety, depression, suicidal thoughts, panic attacks, so on) please reach out and get help. More people struggle with these things than what you’d think so never be embarrassed by needing a little help.

So if I haven’t bored you enough or if you take anything out of this, please make it be that help is out there. You’re not alone. Please reach out and get the help you need.

Stories with Tori

Hey y’all! My name is Tori and I’m clearly new to this whole blogging thing so please bear with me through this (any help would be much appreciated).

I was born and raised in a small Central PA town but have high hopes of leaving and moving to Florida 😍 if you’ve never been to Florida, I suggest booking a flight and checking it out.

In my blogs I plan on covering many different topics. Anything from traveling to the current pandemic, work, family and kids. Oh and of course mental illness and the importance of self care. And probably anything else that comes to mind as sometimes I tend to ramble.

Hopefully my blogs get better with time and I hope you all enjoy reading the shit show I like to call “my life”.

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